Half Way Point

We are at the half way point of Brian's deployment, maybe a little past it. I look back at the last seven months that have past and realize that at points time seems to fly by and at others it seems to be a complete standstill. This past Saturday, I held the housewarming party to show our friends and family the house that we bought together while thousands of miles apart. I can officially state that I have put my blood, sweat and tears into it. I think Brian would be proud of all that I have accomplished. I know I am. I am so very grateful to my in-laws who have spent many weekends at the house helping paint and doing jobs that I have no idea how to. It's amazing that in my husbands absence I have grown closer to his family. They are great people with big hearts and I know I would not have as much done without their help. My father-in-law even came over the day of the party to do some last minute jobs. What a godsend.

My parents have also been extremely supportive. While they have not been able to put in as much time due to their own renovation project, they have been there to wipe away the tears and give me words of encouragement. Without them, I too would not be where I am at.

I am very lucky that, with my husband thousands of miles away, I have the support of so many. However, even though I get that support, I often feel so alone. These holiday's have probably been the hardest months for me. I miss him by my side and knowing he is there to turn to at a moments notice. It is hard being on my own. It is as if a piece of me is missing. It will be strange to feel whole again when he returns. I know when I agreed to marry him, that there would be days, months or even years that would separate us. I know it has made me stronger. I support him for all he does for this country and all he does for me. I am so very proud of him. Every time I say the pledge of allegiance or hear the star-spangled banner, I am overpowered with emotion.

In five short days, I celebrate my 1 year anniversary of marriage with my husband. Just as strongly as I said I DO on December 20, 2008 - I too say that again. I am proud of my husband and love him more than anyone or he will ever know. He is a true hero and I hope and pray that I can be as brave and strong as he is every day.

I love you honey.