March 13, 2013

The reality is setting in that Brian will be gone in just over a month.  I am trying to put a good face forward and not let everyone see how scared I am.  I shrug it off and say it is what it is.  Honestly, that is the truth.  I signed up for this crap, right?  I married him and knew these deployments were a possibility.  I guess I just didn't realize that it would happen so much.  In the 4 years, and almost 3 months we have been together, I am gearing up for another deployment and the realities of being a single Mom.  No  longer can I go out and party and drink away the pain of having my spouse so far away.  No longer can I be irresponsible and just sleep until noon because I don't want to get out of bed.  I have to be strong and put on the bravest face possible.  This is not always easy, especially in light of recent events in the news.  5 Americans were killed in a helicopter crash this week and 2 others were killed when they were shot by somebody they were training.  I know that the amount of causalities have gone down since the outbreak, but that doesn't give any solace those families that are now suffering.  I can't even imagine what they are now going through and I don't want to.  

In the midst of all this craziness.  And while we are sending out troops to continue to fight and risk their lives for our freedom, I cannot help but be disgusted by our government.  Why can't our government officials do their job.  At this point I am not just speaking to the democrats, but to the republicans as well.  We need a unified government working together to solve our economic crisis and make sure the American public and especially our troops are supported.  Our leadership is weak and are not making good choices.  As Americans, there should be more people outraged  by what is happening during this sequestration.  How come our government officials continue to get paid while not doing their jobs.  It disgusts me the they are making cuts to military benefits, but won't look at their safety net.  We as Americans need to take a stand.  Our troops need our support and we need to make sure our government doesn't continue to create this downward spiral. 

I hope that on this deployment, they will have water readily available to them and all the equipment and supplies that they need because last time they did not.  I hope our government will smarten up and start supporting our troops and giving them the everyday essentials we need to survive.

With that being said, my husband is leaving in one month and seven days and there just isn't enough time.  But he will come back safe and sound because he has to and we will take our vacation to Disney.